How are Things?

Tag: write

  • Wednesday 6th August 2025

    Today was a frustrating day. I had three large cabinets to clear out and get rid of old papers. I only managed one of them. And I had constant interruptions, from people who managed to ignore the Closed sign on the door; did they not think that the sign applied to them?

    As well as that, the sheer amount of work was huge. Folks wanted things done that need engagement with other units, that would take time and explanations, all of it. They all want it very soon. Everyone seems to believe that it can be done, and done yesterday. There is no control here, no reins being exerted, no breaks being hit.

    And I am planning to take two weeks off work from this Friday to get my son ready for Secondary School.

    I hate this. I feel stupid, why can’t I get things done more quickly? Getting through those papers took two hours and there is more tomorrow.

    I really wanted to take a lunch break but people simply kept walking into my office and talking, ignoring the hour.

    I’m left irritated and annoyed, and now it is late and if I am going to be able to do anything tomorrow at all I’ll need sleep. Right, I will take a deep breath, get some rest and try again tomorrow.

  • Tuesday 5th August 2025

    How to live a good life is a question almost tired, it has been so explored. But for me, the rebirth/requestioning that is taking place is so new, and so unexplored, that really asking it is not a failure.

    If I was to meet myself in five years, and was to find I was living a perfect life, what would I find? A healthy body, exercised and with no problems or stresses. A mind happy and joyful, again capable and with skills, still willing to learn. And a spirit in touch with compassion, aware of the remarkable and the spiritual, connecting with others and with a greater good.

    To have joy, one must work.

    A healthy body can only be arrived at by exercise, regular and routine. So I will have to go swimming and weight lifting several times a week.

    To have a happy mind, I need to take on study and learning. I need to take up a new skill, or skills, I need to practice new disciplines. I also need to take up mental discipline; perhaps Stoicism, though without the frequent foray into a masculinity that romanticizes the hermitic life. (Come at me bro!)

    A spiritual life is one that thinks of others even when it is not necessarily in one’s first interests.

    So lazy! I have more to write and it is so late, and still I dawdle!

    Today I saw my business coach again, and we spoke for an hour and a bit. I left with a notepad covered in notes, but a summation would, should, include;

    Research a particular business topic that will help me guide my team.

    • Rethink the problem and the dialogue surrounding it.
    • Reclaim the space of the problem and add my own successes to it; in some areas of work I have made huge progress, I need to create that energy to this area of work.
    • How do we create a climate of safety for our team?
    • And also, I am responsible, not guilty. I need to take breaks, set boundaries, take the time to learn, and to work well, not more.
    • I need to communicate, and to have the deep fear of not being worthy, of having no right to be here, fade away. Like a smoker needs to examine the emotion before the impulse to smoke, I need to examine my own self doubt before giving into it.
    • I have for some topics passion, intelligence, and am willing to give real support, at times I am almost an evangelist. That is what I should bring to work.
    • Spock is a thousand times better than Kirk (but you already knew that).

    Dear friend, thank you for reading my late night ramblings. I will continue tomorrow to examine these fruits of my thoughts.